I am now in Hawaii. Got in last night. To catch up, here are my entries from the 18th to today:
Monday, 18, 2011 At my Parents
Today was stress filled. I took the car to storage. We had bought a box of new rubber cables to use to hold down the tarp, but when I went to open the box, I realized that there was a plastic clip locking it and I needed to cut it to open the box. I searched around the property until I found a screwdriver, used that to try and break the seal and ended up cutting my finger. I bled and bled and the tarp was soon soaked in blood as I did my best to get the thing secured while in the midst of heavy winds. Sigh. Finally got it all done and leaned against the car holding the wound to try and get it to stop waiting for my parents to pick me up and I realized that if anyone saw that the car tarp was all bloody, my husband would have some explaining to do when I am no longer home to prove my existence! I chuckled over that one.
We went to see my paternal grandmother in the nursing home, it took her a bit to remember me, but when it finally clicked, she remembered me as a child. That was ok. I brought her a box of chocolates, of which she insisted we each take one, so I did, and yuck on that sickening sweetness. I got a cherry cordial one. "shiver". I returned to my parents house to spend the night, Mom made a wonderful dinner of pork cutlets and asparagus. We sat up awhile, sharing brandy and talk of the old days. I went to bed early, but slept poorly.
Tuesday, 19, 2011 Travel Day
Not very good sleep last night, I really feel rather yucky. Oh what a very long day. Once I got to the Denver airport and got checked in I was relieved to find that I passed right through security and no one freaked out about my Pixie, nor her wooden travel trunk. I had about a 3 hour wait for the plane. All the while, I had Pixie in her small carrier. I really felt a nice relief with her so close. But I have to admit, I also felt an incredible longing for Evie and Allina and even Jollyann. I swear, at this point, I would have had a larger doll companion sitting on my lap the whole flight. Wished I had done it.
On the flight to Seattle, I had to put the trunk under the seat in front of me because we were allowed to only put one bag in the overhead. This meant that I could not stretch my legs out and I was getting cramps in my right leg. On my return, I will definitely spend the trunk by mail.
I was overwhelmed with the commotions around me, with the exhaustion of carrying my heavy bags, and well, getting older just means less resiliency and ability to snap back. So I waited 3 hours in Denver, had a 2.5 hour flight to Seattle, a wait of 4 hours there, the second flight was about 8 hours, and we were delayed by 45 minutes sitting on the tarmac, so it was long day for me.
I sat next to a man with a disorder on the flight flight who mumbled to himself incessantly and rubbed his hands in a fitful way. I wondered how he managed not to break through the skin. On the second flight I was next to ugh….children. Noisy, in constant motion and I was bumped constantly. When they are not your own, they are less charming. I also sat in the back, near the restrooms with constant traffic, being bumped by passing attendants and passengers….I was tensing up and it made reading my book impossible. By the time I arrived in Honolulu, my whole body ached from tension and sitting compressed for so long in my seat.
I woke up after sleeping for 6 hours, nice and soundly but really not enough to get back into the swing of things. I unpacked my suitcase and it felt nice to be able to put my things away instead of living out of a suitcase like last time. My daughter had set up a table for Evie, with her cabinet and some Evie size chairs, and I instantly regretted not bringing her. I set Pixie’s trunk on top of the cabinet. I felt overwhelmed and unsure if I had made the right decision. I have several little packages to open for Ane Thea, as soon as I have the energy. I am hoping I made the right decision, but it sure is hard to see the set up my daughter did, the furniture she found for Evie…..ack, I left them all behind! Maybe I am just too tired to think straight.
Lots of pictures soon.