I remember the day I found Audrey at DDE. At the moment, I can’t remember what I was looking for, but it wasn’t her. I didn’t even know she existed.
I remember having a list in my hand for several BJD dolls that I wanted to see in person, and Wendy carefully pulled them all out of boxes for me to paw over. I wasn’t finding IT amongst some of the dolls I had drooled over in photo’s. I walked along the shelves of dolls and saw this little urchin peeking out behind a bench and I picked her up and was instantly smitten. She was a heavy little thing and she immediately conformed to my hand. She had on a horrible wig and awful eyes and I spent the next couple of hours going through loads of eyes and wigs until I found the right ones. I was so in love with her and she was the most perfect poser, the most perfect size…..everything I had ever wanted in a little companion.
When I brought her home I could not put her down. There is something in Audrey that is lacking in the same dolls by the same company (including Hammie). Tonight I picked her up (half afraid to) and after all this time, she poses as though it were the first day I brought her home.
I remember feeling terrible guilt over loving her so much. Evie was the prima donna companion doll, but I was falling for a new girl in the same way I fell for Evie. I set Audrey aside for awhile to try and break the bond. I started playing with her again and decided that having another like her (Hammie) would help keep her occupied and my intention was that they were both small enough I could bring them on the truck. Soon, I bought more of them but as cute as they all were, they were not Audrey. I sold them all. I set Audrey aside trying to get involved in other dolls. My plan (then) was to find the perfect companion doll and sell everyone else. Audrey would be sold, I was pretty sure. Well…sorta kinda.
I have not really realized it until now, but I have been afraid of loving Audrey! I figured that if I did not handle her, didn’t pick her up, I would lose the connection. I was wrong. I picked her up tonight and my heart melted. I wasn’t even going to pick her up, I headed into the bedroom to get Jollyann.
This perfect little cherub still has her original faceup, her original eyes, lashes and wig, the only bjd I have had, that kept their originality. Perfection from the very beginning. Silky smooth resin, poses like a dream come true, cuddles in the hand like no other doll I have ever had. And no wonky long legs! lol. Oh, what am I going to do?