I have been very reluctant to hold any of my other dolls. I really enjoy looking at them and have happy feelings towards them, but when I reach out to touch them, I pull away.
It’s been bothering me that I don’t touch them. Today I made myself pick up Evie. I have been meaning to give her some eyelashes since her face-up and I thought how it would help if I just handled her.
I tried on wigs and eyes, took lots of photographs, but nothing struck me. I did not feel as though I were handling a beloved companion. How sad.
This was the most interesting look of the usual thousand I take. The wig is not in good condition. It just gave her a ghostly waif look.
I wish I had white eyelashes, I bet it would be a very ghostly look for her. She is not this white (nor is the wig) but I love how the paleness works here. I also love these haunting eyes, but I am not sure how I would feel about a doll wearing them all the time.
I tried the wigs because I did have some auburn eyelashes and didn’t want to put them on if she ended up with a black or blonde wig. But after they dried, I put in lavender eyes and her red hair again as it seemed more Evie. I noted that while trying on wigs and handling her while doing her eyes and lashes, her legs and lower arms kept swivelling around. It was irritating and I grew impatient with it. She has such long colt like legs, so far out of proportion with the rest of her. I re-dressed her in a soft gown and set her back on the shelf. (I am spoiled by my Schoenhuts stay put limbs). I went to take a photo of Evie to show the eyes and dropped the camera. It is now broken! My brand new camera! I could cry. I thought about how many times I dropped the glass eyes while trying them on her. I am dropping things a lot, knocking things over, I am getting so clumsy. That is really bothering me too. I feel like an elephant in a china shop.
When I looked up at Evie, she seemed to look so pensive and that really bothered me. I just stood there and looked at her. Her face up is really quite wonderful. Lots of different nuances of colour and it suits her. The way her red hair wisped around her face, she is a lovely doll. The lavender eyes look so nice too. But there is an aloofness, a far away sadness that comes with so many of the Asian bjds. I walked away hoping another day will bring another feeling. I looked at each and every doll with loving affection, but still no desire to pick them up.
Rosey was sitting by my computer in her wicker chair looking like a senorita! I smiled. While I had the eyelashes out, I had a pair of black ones and just for fun, I though I would try them on her. I never had even considered that she could wear lashes and I have never seen a Schoenhut with them on (perhaps the sleep eyed ones do). I like them! It gives her a completely different kind of look. With the red lips and black lashes, I think she looks exotic!
Sweet dear Rosey.