Allina’s Love

I have calmed down.  Good ol’ Allina, ever so gentle soul that she is, she’s my rock.

 

Allina confided in me that she wasn’t at all sure she could make it a whole year without her brother Mikko. I told her I wasn’t sure I could carry them both and my stuff too, so we went over different possibilities and she thought that perhaps the smallest ones would be best for traveling.  We talked about Audrey and Hammie, as is was plenty to have one brother, but if she had to care for Hammie too, that might be too much.  She thought maybe Charlotte could care for him, but I said that I could take them both, it wasn’t so much and of course, they could keep each other company when I was busy.  Allina agreed with me, but we also agreed to wait until we were home and had a chance to feel this on all sides, getting all my companion’s input.  See what I mean about Allina? 

 

And that brings me to my great news, they are diverting us to Denver instead of Utah, and so with a delivery tomorrow, we should be home tomorrow evening!  It was so unexpected!

 

Also, the BIG decision is just about completed, that I will go back on the truck for the next run, which will bring me home the middle of March and then I will leave for Hawaii about April 1 or the end of March.  Here it is already!  As soon as my daughter and I figure a date, I will be buying the ticket while home this week!  YIKES!

 

At this moment, but of course, it will not be final until everyone has had a say, I am thinking of bringing both Audrey and Hammie back with me on the next run.  It will help me decide if two is too much of a handful.

 

I also bought two matching wigs, in carrot red for them both, I thought it would be fun to try giving them a more unified look:

 

greenshot_2011-01-29_15-32-06  I am not sure how Hammie will take to having a few curls, but if not, I can trim them a bit. 

Photostory: It Wasn’t a Very Good Idea

DSC09628 Charlotte: Evie, there is something I have to talk to you about.  I know you really wanted the children to come with you.  But they cannot come along this time.

DSC09625 Oliver:  Yes, yes dear girl, The children have all come down with the measles!  They will have to stay in our care until they are better. 

DSC09614 Evie:  Oh my gosh!  They all have spots!

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DSC09615 Hammie:  I fell sick. 

Evie: You sure do look sick too!

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Evie: Does it hurt?

Charlotte:  It doesn’t hurt.  But they do have fevers and chills and cannot go anywhere for many weeks.

DSC09618 Evie:  Well this is just so sad!  I hope they all feel better. 

DSC09624 Oliver:  They will, Evie.  We have plenty of Sugar pills! (winking)

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DSC09619 Evie: (sniffling)  Now I have no one to play with!

Photostory: Who’s Idea Was It?

DSC09485 Hammie:  Evie wants someone to come with her on the truck, it should be me! 

Audrey:  No, ME!

DSC09486 Evie:  You are both too little to come on the truck.  You’ll just get in the way.

DSC09487 Audrey:  But we have been on the truck lots of times!  Lots more than you!

DSC09491 Hammie: Yeah!  We could show you all the secret hiding places!

DSC09493 Hammie: (whispering)

I’ll give you six marbles and a coloring book if you let us come with you!

DSC09494 Hammie: …..and you can play crummy ol dolls with Audrey!

DSC09495Audrey:  Pretty please? (kisses Evie on her head)

DSC09496 Hammie:  You are making Audrey cry! 

Evie: I haven’t said a word.  I can’t make her cry.  You guys are just trying to get me to say yes.

DSC09498 Evie:  I don’t want you to be sad, Audrey, but I don’t want you guys in my stuff all the time.

DSC09499 Audrey: I PROMISE, I cross my toes and everything….I won’t touch your stuff!

DSC09501 Evie:  Okay, you can come with me.

Hammie: I don’t believe it!  I thought you were gonna say no!!

DSC09503 Evie: who is that?

Pandy:  I am me.  Where is everyone going?

DSC09504 Hammie:  That’s Pandy.  She can’t see.

Evie: Another kid?  How many more are there?

Audrey.  just us.

DSC09505 Evie:  (sighing) Ok, you can come too. 

DSC09508 Hammie:  (whispering) See, Pandy I told you we could talk her into it!

Perpetual Dolly Issues

So much has happened in my dolly world in the last month that I really haven’t had time to even breathe about it.

Evie’s brown wig is definitely bringing her a new and wonderful dimension.  She catches my breath often and I am enjoying her so much more than before, if that is possible.

But amidst the trunk room, the sewing, the wigging and all the play I was able to have with her in July, something I dreaded reared it’s head.  What to do with the OTHERS.

I did my best to avoid the whole issue by staying busy with Evie.  But on the last day that I was still in Colorado and packing my suitcase, I realized that I could not fit the baby quilt and clothes and all the rest, so I decided to go ahead and mail a box to Hawaii to save on the amount of stuff to haul with me on the plane.

I only needed a small box, so I looked in the sewing room and pulled down what looked like the perfect box, and when I opened it, there was Pandora.  It clenched my heart.  I lifted her out and she immediately curled into my hand and had the sweetest smile on her face.  I didn’t want her to do this to me.  I sat her in the basket chair and tried to pack the box.  But I came back to her and held her again.  I still think of all the bjd’s I have ever held, the DZ tinies are the best.  Darn it.

I came really close to reaching up for the box I knew held Audrey and Hammie.  I hesitated.  What am I going to do?  It’s like I am afraid to see their sweet faces.  I know, it seems like a big to do over nothing.  I mean most people have no trouble with multiple well loved dolls.  I want just one, but love  several.  Sigh.

And of all the crazy things, I wished I had plopped Audrey, Hammie and Pandy in my carrier and brought them with me.  I had made it a whole month without looking at them.  Now I wish I could see them, yet I don’t.  Grrr.  I am still not ready to decide.  The thing that made me think of it this morning was that I was wishing Evie didn’t have such long flippy legs.  I haven’t tried hot gluing them yet, it is definitely on the list of things to do.

Evie has made a friend of my youngest grandson, but he is a bit rough with her, liking to swing her by the arms.  He is fascinated by her foods and toys and of course wants to play with them.  I have to hide her stuff.   It was cute when he said “Gramma, I am going to see your girl”.   I finished a couple of outfits I had made for her and she looks so perfectly Evie.

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Decision Made To Move Forward with my Ideas

It ain’t over yet.

Sigh.  I am in the midst of major doll stuff sorting.  Geez, there is so much I feel overwhelmed again.  Tons of clothes for Audrey and Hammie…Evie could fill an adult suitcase with all her clothes, shoes and stuff.  And, it is actually shocking the heck out of me, but I have 5…count them, 5 gallon size ziplock bags stuffed with clothes for an MSD. I still have Nanny’s clothes too.  Sigh.  I wouldn’t mind the volume of it if it were fro one or two dolls, what I hate is the different sizes.  I had to do a lot of grouping and sorting and it just seemed ridiculous!

This has reconfirmed my desire to reduce it all down.  I have made my decision, whenever I have enough money for Seola, I am adopting her.  I have about 80% of her fees.  If  Seola and I bond, the rest will move on.  If not, I will choose either Audrey and Hammie or Evie and be done with it.  I no longer want all these scales and sizes.  One size, one companion.  That’s it.  So now it is just a matter of deciding the final companion.  I will give it as much time as it needs, it will have to be the one I feel the strongest about.

Evie is keeping me company, but she isn’t talking much.  Guess she feels my stress.

Oh…and yes, I did play around with Hammie as I sorted through wigs.  He’s looking sweet in blonde hair and turquoise eyes!

The Changes are Happening and it is GOOD.

Ah, hometime.

Pretty strange.  We went up to my parents for our mail.  The ice cream set I bought was perfect scale for my Audrey and Hammie. 

The bed set, however was not.  Sigh.  I don’t have a ruler handy, but they were not made for 10 inch dolls.

 I didn’t even bother unpacking the triple bunks beds.

The matching rocker and bench were fine, but I don’t want to break up the set.  I would say this set is better for 9 inches and under.  Anyone interested, let me know.

It’s a cute set, definitely homemade and a bit crude…I would have repainted it myself.  The canopy bed would have been so cute with curtains!  I am very sad about this.

In a way, it helped me decide on my dolly situation.  Before I unpacked the box, I did go and sit with my dolls, holding each one, looking them in the eyes, even Evan and Aloe Vera, in case I wanted to pull their auction down.

But the more I thought about it, the more I realized that the time had finally arrived, that sure feeling in my heart.  The last few that I hesitated over were Evie, Audrey and Hammie.  Zoelina and Pandora are adorable, but having 4 of them, makes them stick together in a group all the time and pulls away from a companionship thing.  I had considered taking only two at a time, or keep the three girls and let Hammie go…but none of those options pleased me at all.

One thing I have to say is that of every single one of my companions (including Evie)  the strongest pull I have is to Audrey.  My gosh, that little girl practically jumped into my lap with glee when our eyes met.  She just isn’t like the rest at all.  I tried comparing her to the other BB’s, and nope, they just don’t have what she has, nor do they even move like she does!  I don’t understand that part at all.  They are all the same….but not at all! 

As I held her, she instantly started to play and giggle and make me smile.  It was at this point we needed to leave for my parents, so I grabbed her travel basket and off we went.  Yes, so easy, so quick and so comforting.

I have had a serious interested buyer for Evan.  I have a lot of watchers, but no other bids.  I expected that, I wanted to get them all on so that about 4 days before the next time I can relist while still on the road, and continue to do so until they have all found homes.

My plan is to finish sorting dolly things, really fine tune it down.  I want to spend some time with Evie and if the feeling grows, I will take Evie and Audrey with me on the next run.  If not, I will take Audrey and Hammie.

I am still considering Seola.  I saw this photo of Seola and thought how much it looked like Evie when she was young.  This is a borrowed photo from DOA, so I will leave it up only for today, and then remove it, as I don;t have permission.  If you would like to see her, email me and I will send a copy.  It was this particular photo that has me spellbound in love with her.

Evie has this very same wig.  To my eyes, it is like seeing Evie as a child.  My curiosity continues to grow, but I know full well that what I see and what arrives could be so different.  The way I am feeling about Audrey right now, I am also hesitant to ruin that (like it happened with Evie when I brought in Evan) by bringing in a companion that could not be in any kind of scale with her, as they would be 10 and 16 inches and both the same age! 

Today is a mellow day, full of reflection and feeling like I am so very close to what I am seeking.  Hammie right now is my only other hesitation.  Do I let Evie and Audrey be my companions?  Would it be better to have just the two little ones?  Do I dare bring it all the way down to just Audrey? (As my original intention with her was suppose to be).

Or do I bring home Seola and see if she could just possibly be the answer to keeping Evie in a smaller version, as I dream of?

Almost there…….